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Amy Hupe

TW: Suicide

2 nights ago I was in the worst place I’ve been mentally for years. I didn’t want to be alive anymore and I didn’t plan to act on it but I know it’s a short step from there.

I sent a mayday text to 3 of my closest people and within 20 mins had someone with me.

After a big chat, and 2 days of proper sleep, eating well, seeing friends and healthy distraction, I’m feeling much calmer and I can see the woods from the trees. Cont…

My therapist told me, when very depressed “resist the urge to withdraw”.

This has been the most important advice I’ve ever had, and sometimes the hardest thing to do. If you’re in a bad place, do not be alone in it.

I’m not “better” yet and my experience won’t be everybody’s, but one thing we all share is that change is constant. There’s always more hope, more joy, more events, people to meet. Life has more for you even when it doesn’t feel like that.

Hang in there, no feeling is final.

Extra special ❤️ to my fellow high functioners.

There’s nothing easy about grinding to a halt, but there’s also a special kind of hell for people who continue to function and seem normal.

It feels like drowning in plain sight.

And on that note, the phrase “it’s OK not to be OK” can pop itself right in the sea as far as I’m concerned.

Tolerance of poor mental health is bare minimum.

Being not OK isn’t OK. People don’t need “permission” to be in that place, they need to be helped out of it.

@Amy_Hupe Sending you all the love! 😘💕
(And so brave of you to talk about all this)

@Amy_Hupe Thank you for sharing so openly, I‘ve been following along with your struggles. I‘ve had my share of episodes, and it‘s just good to hear about other‘s experiences and strategies for when we need them next 🙏

@Amy_Hupe Hey, I’m a random here but as someone who was in a similar situation last year: well done. It sounds like you got loads of great support and you were the one that made it happen. Proper achievement 👍 Even as someone who doesn’t know you I’m very happy to hear it. Hope your next few weeks are as peaceful as they can be.

@Amy_Hupe and completely agreed on ‘it’s ok not to be ok’, nonsense written to be a neat soundbite rather than useful advice

@Amy_Hupe sending all the love in the world. It’s fucking awful not to be okay and I’m glad you’re doing a bit better now.

@Amy_Hupe I’m so glad you’ve got such good people in your corner, and that they show up for you. And I’m glad you’re here, too 💜

@Amy_Hupe much love and hugs your way 💜 I'm happy to hear you’re on the up and so grateful for your friends being there for you. Wishing you the best for the coming weeks 🤗

@Amy_Hupe Wow, I'm so glad you reached out for support and got back to a safe state.

@heydon @Amy_Hupe Well done for recognising it, and reaching out - good insight and absolutely the right thing to do. Been there before myself. The warping of perspective and rationalisation’s that mind state brings with it makes recognising it hard, and dealing with it is not something to try alone.

Glad you got help; and I hope brain chemistry sorts out for you soon. Above all, I hope you don’t feel guilty. Feelings like that; they are not your fault.

@Amy_Hupe I wish you all the best. Hope that you will be able to move out of this disorder one day.

🤗

@Amy_Hupe I’m so glad you got through it and are still with us, I’ve been there, and I know how hard is, I’m really happy for you.

@Amy_Hupe *hugs* I’m glad you reached out and your friends were there for you 💜